res - golden boys

the special one

jose:

'The positive thing is the record because we can say it has been three consecutive years without defeat at home in the Premiership.

'We can say that we share the record with a historic Liverpool team. We are very proud of that. We have the chance next season by not losing the first game at home to have the record just for us.

'We finished the Premiership with some pride and honour. The last game we lost in the league was in January. So we fought for four months without losing another game in many difficult circumstances.

'But for winners the feeling is not good because we don't win. I am happy we are not happy. It shows our nature.'



i feel that the months when i write a lot are usually the ones when i crumble academically.

the nose knows

tonight i was with a very tall and beautiful girl, "helga". she has a spate of tiny barely perceptible freckles across her exquisitely delicate nose and onto her amazing cheekbones. during the course of things i kept pressing my nose into her gorgeous cheekbones, sort of giving me the sensation you get when you get hit in the nose - first a stinging, and a particular sort of nosepunch taste. it felt great and was perfectly appropriate for me with her.

that makes me think of a cartoon movie i watched as a child - it was a bunch of characters (including pinocchio) traveling in search of something, and they kept receiving clues. the final clue was a poem in which the word nose/knows figured prominently. in the end the secret document or whatever was hidden in pinocchio's nose, which a member of the crew screwed off pinocchio's face to find the map or deed or affidavit or whatever.

she is wonderfully mature and one of the best people to talk to one-on-one.

misc

health! is the most important thing. more important than wealth, success, bitches... health. and family. i care deeply about my health and the peer most directly responsible for that is yemi. honestly, he steered me back from the brink several times. i guess he is one of my companions and guides along the path of self-improvement. trick and stevo are also tremendously helpful.

american idol! sucks badly this season. where are all the hot girls? although i guess last season katherine's looks and elliott's voice saved it. whatever.

accents! i just remembered that i LOVE australian accents for women. it immediately conjures up the image of a dark girl with blue eyes sitting in a bar or outdoors at a cafe on a sunny afternoon. my favorite australian woman phrase is probably "i love it when..."/"i hate it when..." - they say that a lot.

deep philosophical thoughts

i don't think that there is such a thing as a "good person" or a "bad person." the world is just too complex for that. a personality is not defined by one characteristic, but by a collection of tens of thousands of smaller actions and intentions. each action is reached by a system of decision-making. each decision is the result of a calculation of what someone values. the things a person values are pitted against each other much like in an economics model. thus values determine decisions, decisions determine actions, actions determine people.

someone give me a talk show.

clipse - hear me out

"the world's my monopoly
with your bitch on top of me"

think happy thoughts

i haven't been writing much lately because i feel trapped. on another note, i hope to pursue healthy activities that make me happy, truly happy. some of these activities include:

cleaning my room
lifting ponderous weights
going to the beach

i hope to extend this pattern of health and fulfillment to all aspects of my life.

russian party

a week ago:
i went with vadim and also yemi to a shitty little dunster room, super cozy, like a furnished cell in the gulag. i remember seeing that it was 2:57AM on a weird cat clock sitting on the mantle. the room was filled with a bunch of russians - blondes, brunettes, siberians, and a bunch of russian mafia types. yemi and i were the only nons. all of a sudden a kid shouted and everyone broke off their russian discussians to pass around a handle of smirnoff and a jar of mini pickles. everyone took a quick shot out of these test tube glasses and then ate a pickle. despite sounding super weird, it tasted amazing. five or six of those were sprinkled throughout the hour or so we were there, soundtracked by something touted as "russian hip-hop" despite bearing a great resemblance to eurotrash pop. i was speaking with a grad student from minsk named sasha when a bunch of white wigs, more white mullets than founding fathers, were passed around. now i have a bunch of pictures on yemi's telephone of me in a white wig. other successes include eating this candy called "squirrel nuts" which sounded strange but tasted great.

heart of darkness

"i don't like work - no man does, but i like what is in the work - the chance to find yourself. your own reality - for yourself, not for others - which no other man can ever know."
- conrad

the cape

skipping stones into the ocean at sunset on the cape - reminds me of walking with alix along the barcaloneta at night. the nightclubs were behind us, but the sky over the ocean was completely black, save the moon. for anyone who hasn't done so, i recommend coming out to the cape to see the sun set. it's superb.

last night i had a dream that i was training with ronaldinho and frank lampard in the same stadium as in the nike golden cleats commercial (you know, crossbar). i was taking PKs and roni was in goal, and i sent it the other way twice.

this afternoon i was taking a short nap and dreamt that my blockmates and i were in a film class. on a quiz, the professor mistakenly referred to a christian bale film as "calling tall" but i said "wrong! the name of that film is actually harsh times."

i should be getting back into boston tomorrow (saturday) morning, in time to have a very urban weekend.

"drugs for them are like spices which they pay for to help them believe it's better living there in prison."
- cidade dos homens